Hiraeth

I left home, walked for a million miles away from it,
But the memories stuck on to me till date. 
How could I leave them behind? 
Ever since I stepped out of that house, it is the only fresh reminiscence in my mind. 
A 6-month-old me was carried into the home that I cannot now call mine. 
Being carried in was easy, but walking out of the house permanently was onerous. 
I am not homeless, but a place where I learned my firsts was my home. 
It aches to describe it in the past tense because that is where my friends and I dreamt of a future. 
Talking of firsts, the home was where I planted my first tree. It was a mango tree. 
When I walked out of the house, it had grown to my knee. 
I had felt pain for the first time in the house too, the pain that I still carry. 

I came across a word today, Hiraeth. The reason why I rode into the past. 

There is no exact meaning to this Welsh word in English, but it is a combination of the homesickness, longing, nostalgia, and yearning, for a home that you cannot return to, no longer exists, or maybe never was.

I laughed at the word because crying would ruin my makeup. 

With a heart so heavy I declare, Hiraeth to me is House number 1144. A house that I once called home. A nostalgia that will be my favorite indulgent. A yearning so deep, and a longing to encounter it all, once more. 

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